For now, just want to note that I am so glad to be back and committed to my dance training, after a year of feeling like I had lost my flow, lost my drive, lost my direction, sometimes even feeling like i lost my ability to dance. little voice in my head (and many good friends) told me this was not true, that my body was just healing from trauma in its own way. but i'm back again and feel like commitment to my training schedule is once again within my capacity. so happy! i'm going to need it too, for all the exciting and physically-emotionally demanding creation things coming up in the next several months...!!!
today, i remembered that something i've always strangely known...that when i leave my body, i'm going to leave like a wild horse, bursting with unbridled joy and inspiration, finally let free out of the gates. i will be surrounded and held by family, love, community, purpose, completion. and i will run.
today's choreography felt exactly like that wild horse bursting through the gates. in a flash i was taken decades into the future, and i knew...when I go I will remember this dance I did tonight. I will remember this moment. what it felt like to be this young. full of possibilities, full of choices i will never make again. with a lifetime behind me, a lifetime ahead of me.